I know that the terrible word is "closure". I know that it shouldn't matter once a relationship (dating or friends) is over. Yet, I can't seem to avoid trying to get a piece of that person. At one point, that person belonged to me. And in many of my relationships (regardless), the interaction ended badly, and I want to a) be able to get my peace, and b) hash it out.
Chances are, I will never get what I want. Yet I can't seem to not try for it anyhow, because of my endless need to be understood.
Case in point: I'm emailing back and forth with a guy I used to date. I don't want him anymore, any more than he wants me. But the end was kinda bad, and we both deserved what we got. Still, it's been a long time and I want to be OK with him again. I don't want to be actual "friends", but I do want to be friendly. It's hard because when I think about him, I go back into memory-land. I don't think I can get rid of the good memories of him.
Is this weird? Does anyone else do this? And to be honest, if this is weird, well, yeah. That's how I am.
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