Update

It's hard to figure out the difference between talking to someone and being too needy. I think this starts with me, because I've been blogging much more often and then I added Twitter. So now, I think that once something is added, I should immediately get results. Perhaps my need for attention is the reason that my relationships never turned out all that well.

Still, I can't help who I am. I want to pay attention to, and be paid attentioned to, a lot. I like to joke around, and play, and I really hope that my last message to A. made him laugh more than anything else.

I think I'm going into bar mode, which makes me jealous, and deserving, and...God, I don't know. I hope I'll get enough forgiveness.

I wonder if that my "real" friends don't read this, I'll be grateful later.

However, any of you who do (I know you do) please drop a line!