The Downside

As you know, I have pages on Facebook and on MySpace. I've been fortunate in that people I've known have added me, so I can know what's going on in their lives. Mostly, the boys I've known in the past. It's a weird feeling to have your exes as your "friends" on these sites. Lately, The Boy has been a part of my life again, and that's a good thing.

The downside is that I can (kinda) follow the other's lives. I did some damage, as they did to me, but I can honestly say I want the best for them. Last night, I think I broke a rule. My ex-fiance posted that he hated women. I thought I was cute, I posted back that no he didn't. Today, as I check up on him, I see that he's changed his status from "relationship" to "single".

I feel really badly for him. He's a good person, and I'm sure a good father, and I hate that it fell apart.

But I know the worst idea is to try to contact him. And that's the real downside of knowing.