Superstition

Yesterday, my cable went out. I called Comcast, and it was fixed in an hour or so. Not a big deal. I called Wade, and during our chat, I mentioned that the worst possible thing would be for my cable to go out today, meaning I couldn't check the results at noon.

She was sweet; she told me she'd check for me. But that's not something I can allow. I need to see for myself. I need to know before everyone else does. Besides, what if I didn't pass? What could she possibly say to me? If I check, and get a bad result, then I can take some time to compose myself before I tell others.

So guess what happened this morning? I woke up around 8:45 and the damn cable was out. I was on the phone to Comcast in a quickness! I explained to the nice lady that today, of all days, is not a day I can be without internet access.

Clearly, it's back on now. Crisis averted.

I will spend the next two hours, while I wait, watching Will & Grace, taking a shower (no shaving today - not a good idea to be around sharp cutting tools while my hands shake this badly), and pacing.

Please, please, please let me have passed. I don't want to take this test again, and I don't want to have to make a ton of calls explaining my failure. That's almost worse than the actual result. It's humiliating to have to tell everyone that once again, I didn't pass.