Felt a need to blog, got nothing I care to tell you, so here we go:
1. I AM: alive, scared, wondering what happens next. What if the things I say I want are really what I want?
2. I WANT: to continue to be a toy, his obsession.
3. I WISH: that I could control everything.
4. I MISS: the safety that ignorance brings.
5. I HATE: the idea of my phone not ringing tonight.
6. I HEAR: the buzzer of my dryer. Sweet, sweet reality, you do help.
7. I FEAR: being forsaken. And knowing that inevitably, I will be.
8. I WONDER: about how very basic things work.
9. I REGRET: not all that much, actually.
10. I AM NOT: gorgeous.
11. I DANCE: when I drive, whenever the spirit moves me. I didn't say I do it well.
12. I SING: when the lyrics move me to.
13. I CRY: not recently, thank goodness, although I've earned it.
14. I AM NOT ALWAYS: patient, caring, or willing to give up my narcissism.
15. I MAKE WITH MY HANDS: oh, jeez, I'm not going to actually type that out. But my hands have been busy.
16. I WRITE: notes, shortcuts, anything that can get me ready.
17. I CONFUSE: my interest in me with the interest others might have in me.
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Never underestimate the power of a Boom! I got your Boyfriend dance in a Cleveland emergency room...
You are more special than you know. You are more capable than you believe yourself to be. Your boy is lucky to have you.
And don't forget: When the rage hits you, feel free to comment on my blog. It'll be cathartic...and something else for you to do with your hands. ;-)
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