Waiting...

I'm waiting for my boy to call me, so to entertain you (and myself) until then, here's my final WinAmp playlist for 2008. (Good riddance, 2008.) This time there's a twist - I've been drinking, so I get to move around to find songs I can tolerate.

1. The Damned, Alone Again Or - Interesting video. A very different sound from them. But the lyrics are captivating. A love made of either self-sacrifice or masochism?

2. Madonna, Drowned World - This song appears on many of the CDs I make. Really? "The face of you/my substitute for love". Ouch. I've felt that way so many times.

3. Siouxsie and the Banshees, Christine - Do I really need to explain this to you? This song is the source of many of my nicknames when I lived in California. Yeah, yeah. Call me "Turtle" now, and see what happens.

4. Garbage, Sleep Together - I really disliked Garbage when "Queer" was released. I knew that the musicians, not Shirley, were record producers, so I disgarded the band entirely. Man, what I moron I was. I now own every record the band released, and have friended Shirley Manson on Facebook.

5. Sarah McLachlan, Hold On - Probably not the best song for New Year's Eve, but I love it regardless. It reminds me of when my cat, Boo, died. It was October 13, 1995. My life changed. I may never forgive myself for the circumstances around it. I cried for weeks on end. I'd had that cat since we lived in Kansas, which would have been 1979 or so.

6. Britney Spears, Crazy - Who couldn't love the high school fun in this song? Is there a better feeling in the world than having a crush? The flirting and wondering are sometimes the best part of a relationship.

7. Garbage, Special - I told you I get to pick this time around. This song reminds me of Matt, a guy I dated years upon years ago. There was so much chemistry - too much, perhaps. Once the affair was over, this song saved my life.

8. Talking Heads, (Nothing But) Flowers - This one makes me giggle, and also not feel so guilty about all the cigarette butts I threw out the window when I was a teenager. "If this is paradise/I wish I had a lawnmower". I also never want to do yardwork. Who enjoys mowing and weeding? My idea of camping is not having an ocean view from my hotel suite.

9. Madonna, Oh Father - I didn't really choose this one. But isn't it a New Year song to my new freedom? Goodbye to what's hurt me, goodbye to doubt and fear. HELL-FUCKING-O to my new life of passions, enjoyment, and success, in every arena in which I want it.

10. Prince, Erotic City - I didn't choose this one either. It was sent to me on Twitter. But really, readers...it's hard to find a dirtier song, or one that makes you want to dance more.

Happy New Year, Readers. Thank you for following my crazy life, and for only judging me a little on how I live it. I cannot wait to tell you all the stories from 2009.