Of The Day

I went for lunch with my friend A. Unfortunately, our other guest, D. could not attend, as she'd headed to Florida for a week. Of course, I am not jealous. I would eat paint to show I'm not jealous. Really, I'm not.

Damn, I want to go to Florida for vacation!!

But we had a great time, and I ran into people I was friends with long ago. It's funny how you think you might still be friends, but life gets in the way and you find you have very little in common anymore. I really, really want to dish but I have to live in this town and it's much smaller than people think. Plus, first (re-)impressions are rarely accurate.

Mostly I just felt insecure. I thought that maybe I'd get more than a "hey" or a polite nod. Of course, I didn't put a whole lot out there either. It makes me wonder, will I ever feel confident enough?

I look forward to starting work on Monday. I got 2 comments from friends, which makes me think that people actually read this thing. Despite my desire to feel unworthy, I really don't.

Fingers crossed.