Weakness

I really don't like showing weakness. Weakness to me means letting someone know I need something from that person, especially if I don't know that person.

When I was a girl, I was a Girl Scout. Cookie season was a nightmare for me, because I was supposed to ask people to buy from me. I absolutely hated it. It was one of the reasons I got myself kicked out of the Scouts. Later, in high school, we were supposed to sell magazine subscriptions in order to pay for our graduation activities and fees. I went to my Mom and told her that I couldn't do it. Luckily for me, she agreed, and she paid my expenses that year.

I feel the same way about job searching. I hate having to tell people that I need work. When I read the job descriptions, I think about how well my experiences would fit for that firm. Yet, it never seems to come across on paper.

Today I applied for a job. I'm OK with my resume, but this position required that I answer very direct questions about applying my experience to its needs. I felt so exposed and stupid, because some of the questions I could not answer with as much strength as I thought I could. I don't want to lie to anyone. Still, I know that if I could actually talk to the interviewers, I would have a much better shot.

My hope is that my best reference will help sell me for me. This whole process is so scary.